plaid shirts

 

time ticks slowly by

these memories floating through my mind

the walls that you once stared at too

and the love you poured into life

here in the little pieces

you left behind

i wish i could squeeze your hand

just one more time

or listen to the soothing consistency

of your voice

if only i could get your advice

on the mysteries of life

the sunshine through the porch screen

of the shortest winter days

remind me of the brightness

of your life zest

the way you took the time you had

without regrets or missed beats

and I'll always be grateful

for plaid shirts and corn fields, 

for the cards that you signed Marjorie

for the moments that stayed behind in my mind

and the shortest day of the year

that gave me you. 

Ropes

 

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i take a deep breath

attempting to untie these ropes

for the millionth time

it tightens again

of its own accord 

without my consent

i look to the heavens

and release my grip

because even if i don't

have control

i know Who does

and as my hands fall

the ropes fall off 

and the air rushes into my lungs

fresh and calm

and filled with Your Peace

that i don't understand. 

Stormy Peace

 

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i looked at the clouds

obscuring my view

debasing my emotions

anxiety rising

waves of doubt pouring over me

and with the rumble of the thunder 

in my subconscious

comes a revelation

the promise of clean

the purifying presence of peace

wrapping itself like a hug

around my soul and my mind

because You never forsake me

You give me your love and mercy

every morning

with every mistake I've made

You've been there

waiting to heal me

and so with gratitude

i watch the storm roll in 

with no fear

only peace. 

Black Hole

 

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the time ticks slowly, crawling by

like a creeping snail out the window

unaware of my angst 

unaware of this pain

simmering low beneath consciousness

do you know what this means?

how can we move past this?

you're my gravity

like a black hole pulling me in

all i want is to know you

to discover your depths

but we're stuck here in the moment

before forever

stuck in our thoughts 

and the limits of time

wanting more but getting less

as i watch the moments tick by

grasping for the moment that you'll return

Oh, Sugar

 

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you were so beautiful
in that summer sun

with the rose colored glasses

of young love.

so tempting and alluring

promising a future

of happiness that never ends

no loneliness or sadness

only happiness and bliss. 

i thought it would be forever

that we'd never have to part. 

but when i woke up 

i found out it wasn't true. 

instead of beauty, you gave me ashes

instead of love, you brought abuse

and embarrassment, 

self-hatred, 

regret and agony. 

when i decided to be honest 

with myself

about the broken promises

i found the pain 

that had been swept

under the rug. 

i found the lies 

you tried to hide. 

instead of sadness, i'm choosing anger. 

instead of being a victim, 

i'm the overcomer. 

and there won't be any more

of you in my life. 

because i'm choosing me. 

and i'm choosing truth.