Thursday, December 29, 2016

Silly Girl

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silly girl
who told you that you could play this game?
even you know
that you'll never win.
silly girl
why are you trying so hard?
who do you think you'll ever find?
you're out of your league.
silly girl
you should just give up now
before you make a fool of yourself.
before your heart is broken beyond repair.

Days



days
when reality is better than any daydream
where we laugh and cry and experience connection.
days
when we love the sun more than the stars
because we no longer have to wish for better times.
days
when we're so in love that planet earth is rose-colored
and we are only aware of each other.

I Forgive You.

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empty words, broken promises
why do i still trust you?
why do i put myself through this pain?
my heart is wounded
yet again.
so i cry silently
i don't let you see my hurt
and i make the decision,
as i wrap this bandaid around my heart,
to still be kind and to show you love
because i don't know your story yet
and you don't know mine.
and i hope that once you do,
you'll realize that you're causing me
so much pain and hurt.

Wednesday, December 28, 2016

Inch > Mile

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he gave me a mile
and i took an inch.
you gave me an inch
and i took a mile.
i wish you could see our perfection.
i wish i could make you fall for me.
but i'm not that type ah girl.
and you're not that type ah guy.
but that doesn't mean my heart won't ache
as i look at the stars and desperately wish
for a simple mile with you.

Saturday, December 24, 2016

Shards

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these moments are beautiful, love,
these memories are gorgeous;
like golden shards of sunlight
of a life lived by few.
i pick up these pieces
i save these shards of time
they are locked away in my heart, love,
i ponder their meaning on rainy days
(it's why i love the rain)
and some day,
i'll be able to glue them all together
into a beautiful breath-taking vase
some day soon all the pieces will fit
and the world will marvel at its beauty.

Thursday, December 22, 2016

Lyric Mania

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a lot of writers read books like crazy. i've never been much of a reader though - i am much more fascinated with the way lyrics can convey such profound meaning in such a short amount of space. anyone can write a thousand words and get their point across, but can you get your point across in 20 words? and when you combine this dynamite with music, the ability to relay emotions is unfathomable. music is phenomenal, breath-taking, inspiring. here's a glimpse into some lyrics i'm currently obsessed with.

---
If you wanna see a change
You gotta love with your life
If you wanna see a change
You gotta love with your life
-Hollyn

---
When I die, put my ashes in the trash bag
I don't care where they go
Don't waste your money on my gravestone
I'm more concerned about my soul
Everybody's gon' die
Don't everybody live though

Listen, yeah everybody wants change
Don't nobody wanna change though
Don't nobody wanna pray
Till they got something to pray for
- NF

---
If you can hold the stars in place
You can hold my heart the same
Whenever I fall away
Whenever I start to break
So here I am, lifting up my heart
To the one who holds the stars
- Skillet

---
I just wanna stay in the sun where I find
I know it's hard sometimes
Pieces of peace in the sun's peace of mind
I know it's hard sometimes

"I'd die for you," that's easy to say
We have a list of people that we would take
A bullet for them, a bullet for you
A bullet for everybody in this room
But I don't seem to see many bullets coming through

I've been thinking too much
I've been thinking too much
-Twenty One Pilots

---
Something inside me's changed
I was so much younger yesterday, oh
I didn't know that I was starving till I tasted you
- Hailee Steinfeld

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

Your Attention

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my thoughts were consumed
my existence was void
an empty shell of aspiration
deceived by these feelings
you looked so bright
but it all was a lie
i felt myself turn into dust at your feet
i'll never be enough to hold your attention
you'll never do a double take
and lust is not enough to live on.

Tuesday, December 20, 2016

Change Yourself

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i am lost
wandering aimlessly
the world is a blur
i can't get past this reality
i'm stuck in a sad dream
if i could wake up i could cry
i know where i want to go
but this isn't where i want to be
things i need to give up
but i'm holding on too tightly
and it feels like i'm standing still
but the world is still recklessly spinning
and i don't know how to move
and i've forgotten how to change.

the hardest times in life you'll go through
are when you are transitioning 
from one version of yourself to another. 

Monday, December 19, 2016

Softness in his Eyes

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i met a stranger today
with softness in his eyes
the kind of look someone gives you
that is filled with compassion
or when they just care so much.
in most people,
you only catch glimpses of this softness,
like a prairie dog peaking its head out of its hole.
it is vulnerable to have such softness in your eyes.
there are no walls to block the world out
when you let them see your soul
when you show someone that you care.
it's in these moments of softness that we form connections.
and it seems so shocking to feel connection
with a stranger that i just met
who has kindness in his eyes.

oh God,
i want to be that person.
i want strangers to look in my eyes and feel safe.
i want them to see my soul because there is no judgment there.
and if they want to pull up a chair and drink some tea,
well, i want them to know in the first instant that they meet me 
that they are welcome here.

Sunday, December 18, 2016

Until

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i never understood anxiety
until i met you.

Nothing

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did i mess this up?
did i destroy my chances? 
darling, if it's meant to be,
nothing can ever mess it up.
nothing is big enough to destroy your chances.

He Understood

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you must tell your heart to be still
i told her
there are some dreams that will never come true
and if he doesn't notice your value
if he doesn't love all your quirks
he definitely doesn't deserve you.
she cried silently in the night
but i would have gone to the ends of the earth for him.
oh my darling, i know
and he would have made you
and he would have broke you.
but at least he would have understood me
she whispered.
and i didn't have an argument for that.
and so i told her
to fill her life with moments
to love everyone and everything she met
with the love she would have given to him.
and someday, if he ever loves you
waste all your time on him - 
but not until he loves you back. 

Beautifully Unreachable

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she was the type to fall in love with the moon
and everything that was beautifully unreachable.
-sdp

Friday, December 16, 2016

Fading Reverie

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you hurt me
you wounded my soul
and made my tender heart bleed
my reverie is slowly fading
it is being consumed by reality
it will soon be lost altogether, love.
i cried because i hoped
i hoped that reality would be soft
but it is harsh and biting
i can't live with these lies
these regrets are destroying me
the daydream is enchanting
but it's a waste of time, love
and i don't have any more time to waste.
i forgive you for the pain
i forgive you for the lost moments
i forgive you for forgetting about me.
but don't expect me to remember.

White or Black

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there's so much white in the world
kindness, generosity, friendship
you smile at me and i smile back
the connection blows me away
the love is more than i deserve

there's so much black in the world
rejection, judgment, ridicule
i smile but you don't smile back
the pain stabs deep into my soul
the hate is more than i can handle

a haze of confusion
i can't interpret this meaning
i want to assume the best
but the worst has hurt me over and over
and i choose to look at the white.

No Fear

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God is our refuge and strength, 
a very present help in trouble.
therefore will not we fear, 
though the earth be removed, 
and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;
though the waters thereof roar and be troubled, 
though the mountains shake with the swelling thereof. 
selah.
-ps 46:1-3

what beautiful words
what breath-taking words
there is no fear when God is with us
there is no fear when we are stayed on Him.
because He loves us, and He will ever protect us
from any type of harm that can come our way.

he that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; 
but he that believeth not shall be damned.
and these signs shall follow them that believe; 
in my name shall they cast out devils; 
they shall speak with new tongues;
they shall take up serpents; 
and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; 
they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover.
-mk 16:16-18

and i cry that Your love is so powerful
so majestic
so awe-inspiring.
the sweet sweet peace and rest
that is found in the shelter of Your omnipotent hand.

Thursday, December 15, 2016

Anything But Fine

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the moon was shrouded in fog this morning
there was a haze around my heart
(did you see it, love?)
because i fell in love with you, it seems
and i am too confused to find my way out
your words make me feel like a desert
and i'm so glad to be getting rain
your eyes are the sun that brightens any day
and when i look at you
all i can feel is this longing in my soul
you make me want to be better
you make me want to learn how to love
you make me lose track of all reason and time
oh love, i'm out of my head, i'm out of my mind
and when i look at you i feel anything but fine
and when i look at you i feel anything but fine.

Darkness Inside You

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there is pain in my heart
i saw the way you looked at me
i felt the intention behind your words
you thought the darkness inside you
would prevent my loving you
but you were wrong, love
i saw the darkness, i understood it fully
and i loved you
i still love you
because your flaws are what make you human
and you are breath-taking-ly beautiful to me.

Wednesday, December 14, 2016

Mistaken Identity

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all my life i've been running
running from the idea of who i'm supposed to be
telling God to make me into someone else
i've fought writing,
i've fought it to the death
and i realized it was killing me.
i hated english class, i despised writing
i burned my journals and deleted my blog
i cried in the night with emotions that were too deep to fathom
i begged God to use me for His purpose,
but i sullenly ignored His answer.
i pursued a career that was as far away from words that i could
i went to college and procrastinated on all my papers.
but God, in His love, has pulled me aside.
i can't tell you the number of professors
who would tell me that i was one of the most gifted writers they'd ever met
i would get A+ after writing 30 pages in 12 hours.
i did everything i could to fail.
but He wouldn't let me and i hated it.
i would cry and tell myself the grades were lies
that i really wasn't that good
that these people just didn't know what they were talking about.
i told myself my perfect score on SAT english was just a fluke
i hated my personality even more when i discovered
that many great writers shared it.
i abhorred any words that would identify me with this part of me - writer, blog, author...
but i think i'm finally coming to grips with my reality.
i'm not sure when it happened.
if it was when i started journaling again,
or if it was when i created a new blog.
it's been slow, and then all at once.
in september, i challenged myself to write a post every day.
and once i let myself start working with my imagination instead of against it,
i realized i was never NOT inspired.
weird things started happening, billboards popping up in my life.
i've been ignoring God for so long, but He's asking me to take a leap.
and so i'm giving up
giving up my hatred of writing, giving up my fight against words
i'm not entirely sure where it will take me,
but there is a journey God is leading me on
and for the first time, i'm willingly following.

Unattainable

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he's unattainable

she whispered to me
heartache etched in her voice
sadness in her eyes
he lives in a different world
with so many dreams and so many lies
and as i murmured  my comfort
her tears turned to glass
memories that can never be destroyed
forever written in her soul
and i told her to dream with him
and i told her to pray
that it would pull him out of the lies.

Sunday, December 11, 2016

Candles

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i've made a discovery throughout life

some people are like under-baked casseroles
warm and friendly on the outside,
but once you take a bite you realize
they are cold and nasty on the inside.

other people are like winter coats
cool and hard to get to know on the outside,
but once you put them on you realize
they are actually warm and friendly.

still others are like candles
spreading warmth and cheer
no matter whether you know them or not
they are constant and generous.

finally are those like an ice box
locked up tightly from the outside world
and once you crack them open
they are just as cold and unforgiving on the inside.

and may we all choose to be the candles.
or if not that, at least the coat
because even if it doesn't light the world,
it can keep those closest to them alive.

Summer Roses

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there's a rosebush outside my window, love,
you should see its brilliant blooms
in the summer, it splashes colors of happiness
and floods the air with its fragrant aroma
the world stops in wonder and amazement

it reminds us of our love
so gorgeous, yet so frail and fragile
it's still spring, love, and this rose needs water
but not too much or it will drown
it needs sunshine but we can't burn it

i watch this flower slowly grow
among the thorns of planet earth
and i feel an impatience in my soul
because i cannot fathom
how beautiful it will be in the summer
it will be so beautiful in the summer

Confusion

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pain
but my heart is still beating
it's vibrant and alive
through this pain and confusion
i squint my eyes in the haze
of lost dreams and fake realities
i love the dream, but hate the isolation
i long for reality because of its connection
and through the fog i realize
my dreams have become painful
and reality is lovely
i have to escape this land of isolation
and i beg planet earth to welcome me back.
but what can i do with my beating heart?
would you hold it for me?
would you take away the pain with your healing love?

Saturday, December 10, 2016

When We were Innocent

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i found a photograph the other day
of when we were younger
you were smiling with innocence in your eyes
i remember that look, dear
i remember it like it was yesterday
i remember the feeling
that care-free feeling without a worry in the world
we were young, and we didn't care what tomorrow would bring.

the memories threatened to choke me, dear
because i know what you've been through
i know the place that you are now
and i wish we could have those days back.
and i'm sure if i could talk to you,
you would too. 

Thursday, December 8, 2016

We're Friends Now

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i'm not sure when it happened
there was never a definite click
it just kind of happened - long and drawn out
gradually, until one day i realized...
i realized that i no longer get annoyed
we don't argue so much
and the silences aren't quite so hostile
i call you a friend now
when once i would have laughed
our time together is interspersed with
     deep thoughts, shared sentiments, and laughter.
we look at the world through different lenses
but sometimes i get tired of my view
and so it's nice to see it through your side, girl.

funny things happen when you're forced to spend time with people.
and, let me tell you, it's the best thing in the world
to feel a connection with someone when there used to be tension.

Only Aware of You

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the chatter of conversations fades into the background
dozens of people in the room, but i'm only aware of you
and i pray to God that you won't notice
     my racing heart, quick breath, or shaking hands
i can feel your gaze even though i'm not looking
i sense the kindness in your soul
and as you start talking, like it's the easiest thing in the world, love,
i scream at my mind to stop spinning.
and pray that you can forgive my short answers.
because in that moment, all i can see
is the splash of color that you're wearing
all i can feel is the accidental brush of your hand
and your eyes overflowing with kindness.
this is a tennis match and you're giving me easy passes
asking me simple questions that i should be able to answer
but i can't even return them
and so you just grab another ball.
you set me up perfectly, a chance i can't resist
and even though my humor falls short,
you give me the music that i long for
that care-free - that breath-taking laugh
and i smile at the beauty of the moment
but when i go home i cry at my mistakes.

Sunday, December 4, 2016

Lost

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we're lost in our heads
these thoughts are beautiful
and for a moment time slows down
and for a moment planet earth is gone
this is just a moment it won't last forever
before it vaporizes, let's save it in our hearts
dance to these emotions and breathe in this stardust
dance to these emotions and breathe in this stardust

we're out of our heads
all thought has escaped us
and we forget about all our cares
and we forget about planet earth
this is just a moment it won't last forever
before it vaporizes, let's save it in our hearts
dance to these emotions and breathe in this stardust
dance to these emotions and breathe in this stardust

we're adrift in time and space
the thought of you will always remain
and we love the way it makes us feel, this pain
and we love the way it shrinks planet earth
this is just a moment it won't last forever
before it vaporizes, let's save it in our hearts
dance to these emotions and breathe in this stardust
dance to these emotions and breathe in this stardust

Overcast

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there are tears trapped inside my soul
like an overcast day without rain
it feels heavy and full of expectation
but what good is rain
when there are no flowers to water?
and what good are tears
when no friend will comfort?
and so the clouds remain with the pain
holding out for another day
a better place and a better time

and i beg God to let me cry.

Distant

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distant and cold
like the approaching blizzard
you ignore my requests
you ignore my outstretched hand
you ignore my feelings
i'm trying to be a good friend
and you make me feel like i'm failing
i don't understand your mind, dear
i wish i could speak your language
i would give anything to be a good friend
but i know i'm not
so this is me backing away
until you are ready to talk it through.

Friday, December 2, 2016

Conversations

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let's just take this slow, love
i'm not good with words
i've never danced before
and this conversation
(can i call it that?)
feels like i keep stepping on your feet
and moving to the wrong beat

you're more graceful than i
so you try to cover it up for me
you somehow manage to catch the ball
that i tossed in such a hideous pass

don't give up on me,
i promise one day we will click
one day we'll start dancing
and we'll feel the rhythm in our souls

--
to all the people who talk to me, even on days when i just can't do words: you're amazing, fantastic, lovely, and generous. i couldn't do this thing called life without all you amazing people. thank you for being patient with me and for overlooking my conversation inadequacies ;) i've long held this idea that there is an inverse relationship between your ability to talk and your ability to write. i'm not sure if that's a good excuse or not, so you can take it or leave it. lol

to the extroverts of the world (and especially one who i call my best friend): i absolutely adore you. you make life easier, i could listen to you all day (literally). i especially need to shout out to my bestie who has put up with so much more than anyone ever should lol. she's sat through the longest silences and never once been awkward on the other side. she's also put up with my late night extrovertism when i have to remind myself to let her speak. (it's true, i'm serious) and she still loves me, just the same.

to the introverts of the world: i love you too. you "get" my quiet. you don't judge me for my lack of expression. you don't have unrealistic expectations of how much should be said. it may be harder for us to become friends (but i don't even think that because i've had more introvert friends than extrovert), but once we become friends, the connection is so deep, so real. 

Thursday, December 1, 2016

Music Obsession





oh
my
goodness

i cannot take this, i'm literally obsessed

this is perfection, guys.
LOVE the lyrics of this one!

Barb


death is cruel and relentless
the last time i saw you was awhile ago
but i didn't know it would be the last
i knew you were sick
cancer they said
and you looked tired and weak
but still full of so much love and kindness
you were a role model to everyone that met you
and i'm not sure if you even knew it
because you were always so humble and giving
always so generous, with your time, energy, and love
and that sweet, sweet voice - i'll never forget it
i heard that you left us today
and i cried
i cried for selfish reasons
i cried remembering all the good memories
i cried thinking of your family
i cried because home won't be the same
but then i thought of you,
and how you have no more pain
how you are in the glory of Jesus now
and how lovely your voice must sound
      worshiping your Creator, like it was made to do
and it gave me peace through the tears
your race is done, you've won your crown
and i can't imagine the lovely smile that is gracing your face
heaven is looking brighter every day.

we will miss you, Barb.
but you are on to so much better things. 

Good

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life is so good
it is so beautiful, love
even though there are dark moments
even if we sometimes cry
God is good, and God is love
He is gracious and kind and ever so patient
we run from Him and yet He pursues us
He protects us and guides us
He is truly the only one that will ever understand us
He sees the secrets of my heart
     all the secrets of my heart, love
and He still loves me
and even the deepest parts of me,
that i may never understand, He does
it gets me every time
how can i resist Him?
how can i deny such breathtaking love?

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Authentic

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there's one thing i need to confess
this is something you need to know
i live my life, and let you live yours
but not only that, i will relish in our differences
they do not bother me, love
these contrasts awaken my dreams

and so even if we are the most opposite people in the world
i can be friends with you
i can fall in love with you
if you meet this one requirement
if you are 100% fully yourself
these are the people i thrive on

i can't tolerate fake
i can't handle judgmental people

live and let live

authenticity is my life blood
if you are real
if you are 100% you
then i will love you
no matter who you are

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

In Return

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he pretended to be nice
and she fell for him
she blindly ignored his manipulative comments,
      passive-aggressive responses, and sickeningly sweet words.
until one day he became brave enough to
slap her in the face
(not literally of course)
and she looked at him in honesty for the first time
because she had shown him nothing but love
and this was the gift he gave her in return.

sure
she wasn't perfect
but she was passionate
she lived life with intensity
and her strength was more than he could handle.

so
for the first time
in a long time
she decided not to waste her tears on him.

Mask

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she was kind and giving
and oh so sweet
the kind of person you could tell secrets to
she would take them and lock them in her heart for you
but then she would never share any of her secrets
and so her heart became a dungeon
from which nothing could escape
and instead of viewing her as a friend,
they began to view her as a counselor
and they took from her emotional reserve
until she had nothing left to give
but her tattered and torn mask
that she refused to take off.

Blanket

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i used to have this blanket
that kept me warm and secure
but it was rudely ripped away from me
that cold September night
i didn't think i could lose you
you was young and beautiful and brave
the thought to tell you goodbye
never crossed my mind

but now
it always does

every time i see someone
i wonder if it will be the last
every time i say goodbye
i memorize your face in my mind
that warm blanket is gone
and in its place is something cold and gripping
fear
and i rip it off and throw it away
but it always manages to find me again

Exploration

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i want to climb mountains
i want to sail seas
i want to run and never stop
i want to be led to where He wants me to be
i want to dream big dreams
i want to forget all the nightmares
i want to heal soul-wounds
i want to make a difference in this dark world
i want to live life to the fullest
i want to make friends with every personality type
i want to fall in love with someone that is in love with me
i want to experience the thrill of emotions
i want to ride the wave of music
i want to taste exotic flavors
i want to hear your soft whisper
i want to relish in your brilliant smile
i want to tell you i love you
i want to dance in the moonlight
i want to be someone i've never been then -
i want to be myself to the fullest
i want to follow my Lord and Savior
i want to be who i'm called to be

exploration
// speed of experiences & ideas

Saturday, November 26, 2016

Darkness

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dark and light
the contrast of opposites 
pulling us into different directions
but as we fight this tide
our contrast inspires the world
like starlight and darkness are we
and the stargazers are the ones who learn the secret 
darkness can never destroy the light
it only defines it
and without the dark, we would never see the stars
without the night, we would never dream these beautiful dreams. 

Friday, November 25, 2016

Mirrors

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we are like mirrors,
reflecting the light and the dark.
revealing what's around us and what's inside,
and when i see what's inside of me,
it makes me wonder.

we try to cover up our feelings.
we attempt this poker face.
but in the end i know what i'm made of,
and you know what i'm made of.
so why do i even try to deny it?

i can't blame you for what you're feeling.
for who life has made you to be.
i can only relish in the beauty,
and fall in love with your defects.

and so no matter what you reflect,
whether it be the sunrise or the storm.
whether there is smooth sailing or waves.
i choose to love the ocean that is your soul,
because it is deep and mysterious and oh, so beautiful.

Thursday, November 24, 2016

Shooting Stars

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this star dust is making us high, love
we cannot begin to fathom our emotions
as we struggle to breathe
and forget all our trials
we disregard their judgemental glances
and focus on the wonder of our affection
this star dust is keeping us alive
as we dance and dream in the night
we fall in love with the moment
this instant of splendor.
we are shooting stars in the evening sky -
they wish upon us
but tomorrow they forget that we existed
until their dreams all come true
and then they wonder at our beauty.

Grateful for You

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i'm grateful for you
because you taught me to love
your eyes showed me kindness
your words were sweet and beautiful
you'll never know how confused i was
you'll never know the thoughts i had to work through
like the sun shining down
and confounding the clouds
like the ocean waves
beating against the sand
you changed my perspective, love
you've made me better
and so if they ask me if i knew you
i have no regrets
you opened a whole new world for me
and i'm still trying to explore it

Monday, November 21, 2016

Scars

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these emotions are like oxygen
we breathe them in to survive
they pulse through us, making us alive
how can we be alive in the night, love? 

breathing is wasted when we watch the stars
because nothing will ever cover up these scars
the pain is real but so is our love
and why must they become so entangled, my love? 

this moment is heated
all we feel is the intensity of each breath
fleeting, fading is its existence
and in our attempt to feel it
     in its entirety
we caught the flame of our ferocity
but, my love, don't you think,
that these memories are so much better

than to live with no scars at all?

Conquer

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she spends too much time in her head
but the waters there are so deep 
and the waves so vociferous
that she will drown 
if she doesn't learn to conquer them

Sunday, November 20, 2016

Chaos

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if chaos is a work of art
then my heart is a masterpiece.
-d.a.f.

this noise in my head is overwhelming
but it's nothing compared to the chaos in my heart.
i stumble and jump up and stumble again
i try to forget your memory
even as you whisper love to me
and i just want you to tell me
that love will be worth it all
but i don't know if my heart can handle another crack, love.
and i'm afraid that you're going to drop it.

love hurts.

Friday, November 18, 2016

Butterfly

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he was hesitant,
not afraid but contemplative.
her fragile beauty, passionate heart, and enigmatic soul
enamored him.
she was like a butterfly,
a touch too soon and she would flit away.
and as he approached her, ever so gently,
she kept her distance.
until in a moment of weakness,
he picked her up and repaired her wings.
and in that glimpse,
she realized that she no longer wanted to fly away.
and she whispered in response to his pensive gaze,
you never need an excuse to talk to me, love. 

We Decide

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the world is spinning
recklessly spinning
and the only thing that makes sense is that look in your eyes
     part gentle caress, part deep still water, part star fire.
you draw me to you even as i try to push you away
and that makes me love you more than anything, love.
we don't need words for understanding.
even in silence we hold conversation.
no one else sees our secrets, the world is oblivious to our connection.
our feelings dance and twirl together,
     unheard and forgotten in this feverish world.
and we take it all in stride,
and we decide to show the world the love it is missing.
we decide to give the world a little more beauty.

Thursday, November 17, 2016

We Fell in Love

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we fell in love with the moment
laughter cascading around us
the world is gorgeous and full of passion
your eyes danced as they looked at me
full of so many thoughts and feelings
and i blushed and looked away

we fell in love in the moment
our lives were jolted by the connection
the way we feel together
the way we make each other better
and we throw caution to the wind
because this is what we've been waiting for

we fell in love for the moment
twirling through the emotions
swimming through the deepest waters
our fleeting lives fading before our eyes
but we have no cares because love is more
and when it's over, there are no regrets

because we loved with every fiber that was within us. 

Wanted to Tell You

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there are so many things that i wanted to tell you
but they got stuck in my head and i couldn't pull them out
and so i observed you, with a sadness in my soul,
because i know we could be friends
if only i knew how to reach you.

Wednesday, November 16, 2016

Moments of Connection

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like the sunshine filtering through my window
your voice touches my soul with its warming caress.
these are just words.
these are only moments, glimpses of time.

like a brushstroke in a painting,
like a chord in a song.
a simple moment of connection
on the canvas of our lives.

we don't see the bigger picture
but we feel the connection of the moment.
we feel the thread binding us together
until our lives become intertwined.

we listen to the song for the first time,
and we marvel at each chord.
      some happy, some sad, and some that don't make sense at all.
but we don't know yet how we will feel when the song is over.
these emotions change so suddenly,
like fireworks in the sky, or like gnats flitting around an apple.
we live our life in moments, by feeling deep emotions.

our lives are a concert, love,
we don't just get one song.
and i don't know how i'll feel when this song is over, love,
but i know how i feel in this moment,
and all i can say is there is beauty in the deep.
so much beauty in the deep.

Sunday, November 13, 2016

Wild Creatures

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hearts are wild creatures
that's why our ribs are cages.

all i know is my heart was pounding,
     trying to escape.
it wanted to be with you.
     your gentle touch.
     your playful laugh.
     // and eyes filled with kindness.
it would have jumped out of my chest
and clung to you
if not restrained by its cage.
if my bones had been weak.
but i strengthened my resolve
because you haven't proven yourself trustworthy, love.
and so i locked the gates tightly.
i brought in the reinforcements.
and my heart, in its agony,
cried to the moon
all
night
long