Motions

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these motions are tedious
their repetition has made me numb
i don't know how to feel
i forget how to think
and all i know is
the way these meanings blur together
the way these meanings fade out.

Abrupt

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this moment is abrupt
it is harsh and unrelenting
awareness of this desire
hope that makes you sick
when daydreams give way to nightmares
and truth turns into lies
what were we waiting for?
our pain to face us?
reality to burn us?
how will we ever get over this, love?

My Mistake

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i've been confused
driving myself crazy
but looking back, i see it all now
i see how i messed this up
it was my fault all along
it was my knife that did the cutting
not yours, love.
i am tarnished and bruised
and too timid to even look at you
for fear that your eyes will be filled
with hate that i feel towards myself
(i can bear my own hate
but i couldn't bear yours, love.)
i would give anything to take back time
i would do anything to make this right
but all i can do is whisper
i'm so sorry
and hope that you will hear me.

Disappearing Dream

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you were like a dream
appearing to me in the starlight
and when the day broke
you disappeared from sight.

and those moments we shared
i can now barely recall
the way you grinned at me
the way your eyes told it all.

maybe we weren't built to last
but it feels like we never even started
and the pain was too much to bear
so on our separate paths, we parted.

now you'll never know, love,
how the rain washes these tears away
or how all i wish for
is that you would have stayed.

Your Knife

you look so brave wielding that knife, love,
i was impressed
(as i always am)
until you sliced my heart in two,
removing yourself in the process.
(did you do it on purpose, love?)
i don't think you did
because i saw the look in your eyes
(i gave you that look too -
did it scare you, love?)
your look terrified my heart, love
it beat against its cage
pounding and fluttering
in all the worst ways
in all the best ways
and now my soul is wounded.
and the only balm that will help it is
your kiss. 

Alternate Realities

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you put on a front to the world, love,
making them think you are sweet and kind.
pretending to be perfectly flawless.
but you didn't realize that your mask was cracked
and that i can see right through it -
catching glimpses of who you really are.

did you think you could hide it?
did you think that if you played the gentleman,
it would make you one?
did you think that saying pretty things
would make your heart beautiful?
or that you could ever fake perfection?

your mask is painsteaking,
and i can't lie that i'm impressed
by the details you've managed to weave
into its intricate design glued on by hate.
but, try as you might, you haven't fooled me, love,
because i see right through the cracks in your mask.

you're living in two alternate realities, love,
but only one of them is real.

He Has Her Fooled

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he has her fooled

putting on a mask of kindness

playing the part of the gentleman

and he laughs as he pours on the sugar

because he can see in her eyes 

that he has her fooled.

he has her fooled

pretending to flirt, pretending to care

rolling the dice with her heart -

he thinks it is fragile and naive

so he laughs as he plays the twisted game

that he has her fooled.

he has her fooled

but not for much longer

he's getting sloppy

the mask is crumbling from his perfect face

and he won't be laughing for much longer

that he has her fooled.

Too Much Thinking

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he wants to tell her he loves her
he wants to tell her he cares
but he remains silent thinking he's brave
he doesn't want to hurt her
he thinks she needs someone better
so he walks away without the risk.

she wants to tell him she loves him
she wants to tell him she cares
but the words are stuck in her throat
she wants him more than life
she fell in love with his flaws
but her heart is breaking from his silence.

Silence

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he's breaking her heart with his silence
with words he isn't brave enough to whisper
questions that won't form on his lips
and she sees it all in his eyes
because he can't make them lie
but she won't trust her instincts
she won't let herself believe that he cares
and so she doesn't trust herself to speak
she holds a thousand thoughts in silence
all she wants is silence, all she needs are his words
and he won't win the trust she's already given him
because he's breaking her heart with his silence.

Screenshots in My Mind

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my heart is full
overflowing with love
spilling over with memories
of moments gone by
snapshots of perfection
screenshots in my mind.

would you take my hand
and hold it in yours, love?
would you kiss me
with more than your eyes?
would you stand by me forever
even if it's in silence?

because i'm dying here
a slow painful death
i'm so wasted from these dreams
so high from these memories
your smile and your eyes
and your beautiful beautiful words.