God Made You

[via]

it was a quiet feeling,
the kind that just sneaks up on you.
the kind that you never expect.
it was a lovely feeling,
different than what you pictured.
different than you had imagined.
and i didn't know how to describe it;
the way you loved me,
or the space you held for me.
it was like opening a new door,
one that i'd never noticed before.
and behind that door,
was a new world.
a breath of fresh air.
a precious gift from God.
and when He crumbled the old world
     in front of my eyes;
He fashioned you to hold me.
He made you to fit me in a perfect way.
and to show me what true love is. 

Nothing Will Ever Be the Same

[via]

nothing will ever be the same.
yet, still i remember those moments
the walls of my heart painted with nostalgia
happy moments turned into sadness
wistful longing for stories that never unfolded.
but i hold these memories in my mind
opening them and closing them a million times.
and smiling at the way you laughed;
the connection we had, if only for a moment.
and you may forget me,
a hundred years from now;
but, darling, i'll never forget our moments,
our memories,
our split second of connection in this journey of life.
and as i close the box of my heart,
i whisper a prayer, that some day,
i'll run into you again...
in a crowded store or abandoned hallway.
and that our eyes will meet like old times,
even though it is a thousand miles away.
and i'll say your name, and you'll say mine.
for a moment, the memories will be with us again,
my dear friend,
and the memories will be sweet again
instead of bittersweet.
nothing will ever be the same. 

Flavor of Your Love

i let the flavor of your love

sink onto my tongue; 

a million thoughts 

     dancing on my taste buds. 

and every day is something new

something new to love;

so many things to learn,

     so many memories to make. 

these flavors are exotic

in endless combinations; 

and as i take another bite

     it's anything but ordinary. 

Self Righteous

[Hyderabad, India]

the sun is setting out my window
a gentle breeze dancing with the curtains
as i breathe this summer air
noises from the ground below
still echo in my ears
and i watch the traffic doodles
     and swirling neon lights
outlining the roads below
my mind is full with pleasant thoughts
happy memories
hopeful dreams
but i often wonder at the difference
that a world can make
my day is over and they are just starting
even time seems different,
in the chaos there is still peace.
in the hustle, there is still calm.
and i wonder what God thinks,
as He looks down from above.
with the whole world judging each other
and withholding love,
when He created so much variety,
and all we want is for them to fit in our little box.
and we choose our beliefs over loving,
instead of letting the Holy Spirit convict.
because we think we have all the answers,
and maybe we just need
to walk a mile in their shoes.
and remember that Jesus
condemned the pharisees for their judgmental beliefs.

the world isn't a box.
God made it bigger.
His imagination is not limited
by culture or religious expectations.
and there is so much beauty that we miss
when blinded by pride and self righteousness. 

Ordinary

[via]

it was a normal day
the sun was shining, but not too bright.
the birds were singing, but not too loud.
my heart was beating, but not too fast.
the kind of day that you never notice.
it doesn't catch your eye or change your breath.
and if you let it, it will make you comfortable.
too comfortable; complacent.
but that's the kind of day it is.
nothing more or nothing less.
always steady, always constant.
with the sun shining, and the birds singing,
and my heart beating; beat by beat.
never stopping, never tiring.
but sometimes, love,
ordinary is the best kind of love.

Cleansed

[via]

the storm surrounded me

like the darkness you created

cold, heavy rain took away my breath 

and lightning pierced my soul.

it's what you wanted, right, love?

you wanted me to feel the pain. 

you wanted me to know i wasn't worthy. 

undeserving of your love. 

you wanted me to know i was wrong.

isn't that why you threw those stones? 

but, love, don't you know...

you aren't god.

you don't see my heart or hear my prayers. 

my decision doesn't affect your self righteousness. 

the rain fell down, and it almost drown me, 

but love, i thank God for it 

i thank Him over and over

because instead of drowning, it cleansed me 

illuminating the dross and removing it. 

and i thought i would miss you 

once the pieces fell, 

but all i feel is peace. 

Jesus has the storm. 

Better

[via]

i fell in love with you
with rainy afternoons
with sunshine dancing on the floor
and cozy whispers in my ear.

i fell in love with you
and when i looked up
you were there beside me all the way
with a handsome smile to cheer me.

i fell in love with you
despite all the naysayers
despite the self righteous haters
i fell in love with someone better.

Learned to Sail

[via]

the sun was dancing through the leaves
kissing your face with its shine
as we laughed in the autumn breeze.
it was a gradual feeling,
like meeting a stranger
and one day, realizing you're best friends.
we had adventure in our blood
and a story written only by God
and a mutual love of learning.
as this ship sailed, eight thousand miles or two.
we jumped on board
with laughing hearts
and learned to sail together.

Took My Hand

[via]

i hesitated,
unsure of these emotions
unsure of this wave of thoughts
new and unrelenting
i hesitated,
not sure if i was strong enough
to endure the long winter nights
or to walk by your side
and in that moment,
you took my hand.
you reached out and took my hand
you touched my soul
and chased the fear away
and all i remember seeing
was the little boy behind your eyes
so full of hope and belief
you never doubted me,
even when i doubted myself
and you never hesitated
to share your warmth and strength.

The Day I Realized

[via]

there was an essence,
a silently understood facade
and i believed it all my life
growing up, i never doubted
but now i've learned
to look in the shadows -
and when i did,
the walls came down.
the false hopes,
and painted memories,
they all came crumbling down.
and when i looked in the shadows,
i realized that you were never really there
and you can't fool me any longer
with your artificially sweetened misnomers
and the subtle way that you destroy me
all while pretending that you care.
oh, but my darling,
God gave me a gift,
He showed me what true love looks like
and in His gracious kindness to me,
the scraps of artificial love
that i used to cling to,
have fallen off and set me free
but, my love,
i'll never forget the day i realized
that you never actually cared.