This is going to be an honest post.
I always try to be honest, but the point is -
sometimes it's easier to share the best things and leave out the rest.
But life isn't always perfect.
Sometimes it's hard and sometimes it's messy.
I honestly don't think I've ever felt so alone in my life.
I don't think I've ever spent so many sleepless nights crying and reading my Bible.
I love my job so much, but I miss my friends, my family, and my church.
But if there's anything I've learned, it's that God is always faithful.
He draws near to them that draw near to Him.
Even when I feel totally ugly and unlovable - He still loves me.
Even when no one else cares about what is going on - He does.
I've felt His presence more than ever lately...
And I've been clinging to His promises.
I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. (Heb 13:5)
All things work together for good to them that love God. (Rom 8:28)
And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand. (John 10:28)
Fear not, for I have redeemed you, I have called you by your name; you are mine. (Isa 43:1)
I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go: I will guide thee with mine eye. (Psa 32:8)
I will be a Father to you, and you shall be my sons and daughters, says the Lord Almighty. (2 Cor 6:18)
Maybe I am not the best person to say this, because I am a complete atheist. But, I admire your faith so so much! Honestly. People never understand when I say that, because I don't have faith, but it's so beautiful when people have faith in God, and uses it for a good cause instead of a bad one. Like judging others etc. It's beautiful to see that you can take strength from your faith, and that helps you through life. It's just beautiful. And I don't know if you need anyone to tell you this, but I will anyway... It's okay to sometimes be alone. There are just moments in life that we are more by ourselves then others. And that's completely okay. Deal with it in a great way, and the next time it happens it won't even be a problem :) Much love to you and I hope you feel better soon! xxReplyDelete
Thank you for sharing that, it has really encouraged me. <3Delete
What a beautiful post, Lorraine. I don't know what you're going through, or how hard it is, but I know it is hard. I've felt lonely before, and it is so hard. And what comfort there is in reading God's word! I don't do it as much as I should. Praying!ReplyDelete
And I'm learning ever so slowly to be grateful for these types of things, because they make me grow and rely on God more than I would if my life were all sunshine and rainbows....Delete
Amen. I whole heartedly agree with that. Those times when I'm struggling the most are also the times I feel closest to God. It's also very encouraging to remember that when we struggle with sin (which may or may not relate to the present situation), instead of just sitting by and feeling like you're doing alright in your walk with God, means that we really care, and want to do better. Romans 7 talk about that. I've been reminded of that on multiple occasions, and it definitely helps.Delete
Just now checking out your blog and this post was such an encouragement. <3 Thank you so much for being vulnerable and real! Praying for you, Lorraine!ReplyDelete