Some days it feels like all you do is give and never take.
Some days you try to be a friend and everyone else is fake.
Why can't this world be a less cruel place?
Why can't people at least act like they care?
Honest moment here. On days like that I just want to give up on friendship altogether. Why even try when people that you thought were your friend don't seem that interested in actually being your friend? I mean, am I wrong to believe that being a friend is basically being interested in another person, in the most basic sense. Being interested in what their thoughts and feelings are, being interested in what's happening in their life, how things are going? So maybe I'm wrong to feel like if I'm asking others how life is, that they would ask me how my life is if they cared. And maybe I'm wrong to feel like maybe they are annoyed or not really my friend if they only answer the bare minimum and don't input into the conversation. But usually, I take that as a sign that they don't want to talk, and you know what? That's okay. I'm not going to force you to talk to me. It just makes me so confused at how I ever thought you were my friend in the first place...
Okay, rant over.
On days like that I just have to remind myself that I feel things too deeply. The confusion and hurt are over-magnified because, honestly, I should just stop thinking about it. Haha. If only that were easy (an introvert to stop thinking). Then I think about all the real friends that I have who do care about me. The people who ask me how I'm feeling, even when I don't ask them. The people who go out of their way to make my day a little better. The people who understand my rants and love me, even though I'm not perfect. Even though I don't always say the right things or smile when I'm supposed to. And then, I just can't quit smiling. Because those are the people that make my world go round (:
So if that describes you, thank you from the bottom of my heart. Because you are seriously the most awesome thing that this world has ever known. And I totally love you. Thanks for being a real friend in a world of fakers (: