Ok.
This isn't a poem. This isn't make believe.
This post will be real and raw and full of questions.
Consider yourself warned.
i'm thinking about taking a break from blogging. or maybe even deleting my blog. idk, i just feel like i've lost my vision. i want to share beauty. so much of life, i view in awe and wonder. i believe that life is art, and there is so much beauty around us, just waiting to be discovered. my goal in starting this blog was to help people see the world differently, but i don't really feel like i'm doing that, and so it's time to reevaluate.
some days it feels like i'm writing to the blank wall of hyperspace. other days, i share with people in real life and they either don't react or misunderstand. people have a horrible tendency to take everything at face value. i write nothing at face value. i use the endearment "love" and my friends assume i have a romantic interest. i write about love in a general, vague sense of loving everyone or loving your friend or loving the stray cat you found. and people automatically interpret love as romance. yes, loving that stray cat can be romantic. watching the sunset alone is romantic. everything in life can be romantic when you have the right mind set. when you look at the world in color instead of black and white. it doesn't mean i'm hopelessly in love with some boy. it means i'm in love with life. hopefully, fantastically, beautifully.
and all i wish is that you, my friend, could see so much beauty too. that you could stop being so scared of every single emotion and just embrace life and live it in it's entirety.
but i'm not getting that point across somehow. it's all lost in translation. and i'm not sure why or how... so i'm ready to give it all up, to quit trying. if you have any insight, any suggestions for me to improve my style or what i'm doing wrong here, i would appreciate hearing them.
that's all.
rant over.
thanks for listening.
love and peace always.
I think your blog is absolutely so cool! Your poetry is amazing and emotional but also meaningful and raw. Don't quit blogging. Your really good at it. :)
ReplyDeleteNabila // Hot Town Cool Girl
Thanks for sharing your thoughts, Lorraine. <3
ReplyDeletePersonally? I think you do share beauty and your love of life on this blog. I think you share it well. You have a gift, I believe a God-given gift, and you're using it well. I know I have not followed all your posts faithfully (although I am hoping to figure out some method of scheduling out the different blogs I follow so I can read them all, because I want to!!), and I'm sorry for that.
I'm not sure whether taking a break -- or stopping altogether -- from blogging is what would be best for you, so I won't try to say. But I CAN tell you that I hope you don't. Your writings are beautiful and it's a privilege to read them. However, you need to do what would be best for you at this stage, so I would say: Pray about it. See what God and you yourself think.
If you want to more clearly convey that not all these poems are meant from a "romantic" (in the common sense of the term) perspective, than you could maybe consider substituting a different term than "love" in some of the poems, such as "my friend" or "fellow beauty" or something like that. But, I don't mean to advise you to change the way you write or to make your poems more "face value"-ish. Poems are often very deep and it can be difficult (certainly is for me, sometimes, no matter whose poem it is!) to decipher the true meaning. But that doesn't mean the poem should be changed.
Okay, so, there's my two cents. It's great to see a person who's loving life and living it fully -- hang onto that wonder and stick close to God and you'll do great things. <3
Like I said, I won't try to badger you out of stopping if you want to, but, again -- I hope you don't.
Hope you're having a great Sunday! <3