there are a thousand tears trapped inside my soul
but i can't let them out because i still love you
i want to hate you i want to need you
why can't you just love me back?
i wrestle with your thought
i agonize over these day dreams
and am confounded by all my hopes
how can i still give you these signs?
all you've ever given me is wound up nerves
and the pain of humiliation.
i gave you everything
and in return
you gave me nothing.