I Didn't Know

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i thought of her today.

of broken friendships 

and tainted conversations

     long since past.

those memories

of feigned laughter, 

mixed signals, 

and deafening silence

build up like a toxic fog

     in my mind.

until the sunlight 

of this present moment

     clears it all away. 

back then, i only saw the trees.

today, i see the forest. 

i was lost when she

trapped me in her web

of tangled promises and

churning relationships. 

but He took me to the shore.

He saved me like He always does.

and looking back, i see all the reasons.

and looking back, i see all the reasons.

so thank You, Jesus, 

for delivering me 

from shallow friends 

with deep conversations. 

for protecting me 

from toxic relationships

with dark intentions.

for saving me

in Your flawless timing.

for saving me

when i didn't know i needed saving.